Time Spare to get my act together

I'm not very good at this whole blogging thing. Maybe no-one even reads peoples blogs.Don't supose it really does matter in the whole scheme of things. What does one really blog abaout? Life? what you are up to? I don't know. Guess I will just write about both.

Right now I should be sitting in a Cafe in Paris sipping coffee and watching the world go by. Sounds great...just I still sitting at home feeling lost and not sure where to go from here. I had a plan and that plan still holds just have to wait a bit. My plan was to spend my birthday (40th) somewhere special. First it was to be in Spain....walking the Camino for 6 weeks right across the top end of Spain... Not everyones idea of a great way to spend a birthday, but it was mine. For various reasons this idea that was planted in my mind for years had to be put on the back burner. Sad, yes but we don't always get what we want in life now do we. New plan. Spend 4 weeks traveling through France and Italy with my husband and have my birthday in Paris. The day was to begin with a trip up the Eiffel Tower with cup cake in hand to have as my birthday cake and eat it at the top, then at 11pm I would be going to the Moulin Rouge to see a show while sipping champagne. Ahhhh sounds devine. What more could a girl want. Booked the flight, accomadation, got the tickets for the show, hell I even lost nearly 7kgs and bought a hot dress to wear. Done. About two days before departure Iceland decided that she wanted everyone to pay some attention to her by blowing a fuse! Yes we all have heard about the volcano eruption. If you havent you should come out of that rock you have been hiding under and pay attention to the world. Just like many of thousands of people we too got affected by it. I am fortunate that I hadn't left home yet so was not stranded some where in the world, it just means I won't make it to Paris for my Birthday. Yes I'm sulking! And I know that I'm acting like a spoilt child! I don't mean to it is just that I have had these dreams for years, I do mean years, so I'm really feeling let down by the universe. Hey I will get over it and I'm far better off that most people. I'm just having a sulk. I think we are all intitaled to a sulk evry now and then. Anyway I'm flying out three days after my birthday, (providing Iceland behaves) and my husband said that it won't be my birthday till we are there so I get to stay 39 years old a bit longer. So really I'm luckey. So what do I do in the mean time? Had no plans. Should do some gardning maybe? Catch up on stuff? to tell you the truth I don't feel like doing anything. Maybe I really should clean up the studio! There is a thought. My last two jobs left it in a bit of a mess. I'm not the tidiest of artist. I tend to spread my stuff around. should try and get some of that paint of the bench. Yeh maybe. Always feels good to be in my studio. I know though I will get side tracked and start another painting and knowing me I will want to finish it before I go away in 5 days time. Great distraction. So bye I have complained enough. pull up those socks and get painting!